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On the Battlefield of Life at Rock Bottom there is Still a Promise of Hope

Something deep inside of me had awoken and was warning me I would not survive if I continued.

When I was younger, I walked around in a storm, constantly plagued by worry and stress.

I carried so much unresolved anger and unhealed pain that the world felt like a battlefield. I was constantly on guard, ready for confrontation, ready to fight. My mind raced a million miles a minute. I had no peace; I had no reprieve. My constant state of angst left me on edge like a ticking time bomb. I was ready to go off at any moment and with the slightest prompting. I was volatile and violent.

It was taxing to live like this. It was so hard to cope with this never-ending state of anxiety. I had a very hard time enjoying anything. In fact, life, for the most part, felt like torture. It became a struggle to just make it through the day.

No matter what I did, I couldn’t seem to get away from the negative thoughts in my head.

At that time in my life, I made some very poor choices. I turned to drugs as an answer to my problems. I thought that if I could just quiet my mind for a little while, if I could just have a break from it all, maybe I could be, maybe I would be OK. I kept chasing that numbing. I went deeper and deeper. I lost control, and I lost my footing in reality.

I woke up one day after having been high again for days on end. I was severely underweight. I had stopped looking after myself completely. I woke up to the reality that I was reaching an end.

Something deep inside of me had awoken and was warning me I would not survive if I continued on like this. I knew.

Everyone in my life at that time was leading a similar lifestyle to the one I was. There was no one to turn to. I had no healthy relationships. I had no support system. I had no family to turn to. I had been swallowed by my lifestyle. I didn’t know what to do, or how to do it. All I knew was, that if I continued, it would be the end for me. 


That day I decided to stop using all drugs. Everything.

I had no idea how addicted or sick I was. I did not know how dangerous it was to just “quit.” I did not realize until I started hitting withdrawal. I had never gone long enough without to realize what it would be like. It was one of the worst and scariest experiences I have ever been through. Shaking, shivering, sweating, in fetal position, passing in and out of consciousness between vomiting and defecating myself. It was grotesque. I wasn’t sure if I would survive it.

I don’t remember all that happened, but I do remember having an awakening as to how my addiction was, how out of control it had gotten. I was fairly certain that I could only go through this once. I knew if I gave in, if I didn’t keep going, it was very likely I would never have the courage to try again.

Somehow, I don’t know how, I made it through.

I felt really awful for a long time. I had no energy. I cried all the time. I slept all the time. I couldn’t cope with anything, not even the simplest of tasks. I kept away from anyone and everything as much as I possibly could. I spent the majority of my time in solitude.

I started to think about things. My life, my choices, the person I had become, and how I was living my life. I started thinking about change, the possibility of change. I started thinking about the future. I had a very difficult time finding any optimism. I didn’t know how to live. How to be. How to change. How to change my thinking.

This is where it all started for me. This was my rock bottom.

Rock bottom is where I slowly began collecting myself. I made a promise to myself to just do my best every day. It didn’t need to turn out. It didn’t need to be perfect. I just had to honestly, no excuses, try my best. I was determined to find change. I was determined to be a better person. I was determined to rise above my past. 


I began to advocate for myself.

I looked for anything that might help me. I began learning. I read anything I could get my hands on to that might give me insight or answers. I came across cognitive-behavioral self-therapy. It changed my life. This was the beginning of my journey into the realm of self-development. Since then, I have never stopped learning. I never intend to stop learning or working on my own self-development.

Seeing first hand the impact it has had on my life. I feel compelled to share whatever I have learned, whatever I understand, with others in hopes that it might also help them. It is my great hope to help others.

To this day, I still keep that promise to try my best each and every day.

I don’t attach to the outcome; I don’t build expectation. I don’t try and match an ideal of perfection. All I do is try my best, with what I have, with who I am, with how I am.

It has served me very well. Today, I am still working on myself; I still have work ahead of me. But, I have my life together. I’ve changed a lot. I’m a different person, leading a different lifestyle, following a different path. I no longer carry around that angst and negativity. I no longer feel like I am in a fight with the world. I have found and grown a peace inside of me. A peace I cultivate and grow every day. A peace I carry into every moment. A peace no one can take away.

Change is possible. A better life is possible.

The first step is believing. The second is acting. You don’t have to achieve everything overnight. You just have to be willing to try. One day at a time. Just keep trying. Keep believing. Advocate for yourself. Seek help for yourself. Improve the quality of your thoughts. Improve the quality of your life. It will require work, a commitment, and consistent effort, but it’s worth it. It’s worth everything. Love yourself enough to make a better choice for yourself.

One choice at a time. One moment at a time. Don’t worry about the past or the future.

Just deal with the moment, the now. Do the best you can and leave it at that. Don’t attach to the outcome. Remember your intention. Let that bring you solace even on the most difficult of days. Learn to forgive yourself. Learn to be kinder to yourself. Step by step. Little by little. You’ll grow stronger. You’ll grow your courage. You’ll step into your power.

I believe in you.

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Akiroq Brost

Akiroq is a Human Potential Inspirational writer, who has a passion for helping others explore and harness the extraordinary potential that lies within each and every one of us.

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Jo Franklin
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Thank you for a unguarded look at your journey that brought you to where you are today. I APPRECIATE you sharing a part of yourself and the help that it has offered to so many. It has given me such a helpful perspective of self advocacy, discipline and a desire to do your best. Much love to you!

Kathykforeman2
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That was a beautiful and inspiring article. Thank you. My son was an addict for many years and it was very difficult for the entire family. Last year I witnessed a miracle, he quit all drugs and turned to his faith and totally changed his life. He also quit cigarettes and since January 1st of this year hasn’t had even a sip of alcohol! He has a full time job since last summer and most importantly has found a church home and has become “on fire” ( his words) for the Lord. It has been a wonderful thing for all of us to witness and I thank God every night. He has asked us all for forgiveness for his past and I couldn’t be prouder. Thank you for sharing your story, I’m sure it will help someone else.

Brooke Lillith
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Ohhhhh Akiroq – I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out, covered in chills precious goddess. This article is simply brilliant beyond all words. I recognized my past self in every word and space in between, and everything you shared resonated right at my heart and soul and touched me at the deepest core level. SO powerful. I don’t even have words my love – I am just so grateful that both of us chose LIFE!!! We have truly gone from living in Hell to cultivating Heaven on Earth, and I am so beyond proud of you and inspired by you soul sister. Your growth is astounding. Your journey is astounding. YOU are astounding!!! You are a Warrior Queen in every way, and you are, and will continue, to help and heal SO many through sharing your story with all of its raw truth and beautiful divine wisdom. This line in particular touched me SO deeply – “Remember your intention. Let that bring you solace even on the most difficult of days. Learn to forgive yourself. Learn to be kinder to yourself. Step by step. Little by little. You’ll grow stronger. You’ll grow your courage. You’ll step into your power.” So. Much. Truth. Thank you so much for sharing your gifts angel. I love you SO MUCH!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Makayla
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Makayla

Your story is truly touching I never had to deal with drugs or recovery in my life but I’ve had friends that have been a part of my life. So just know that you did wonderful thing for yourself & others! God loves you & wants the best for you, so keep following his plan for you! May God Bless you always! Keep going strong girl! ❤️

noureddine
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thanks
i couldnt find many words if i wanted to talk about my life and self too.and may be just because it is common in most hummans.the exception is mine perhaps is more complicated little bit.sometimes you cant say what belongs to the devine and what to the human and what belongs to me as one and only.without doubt your ideas are clear and thanks for sharing. i dont know from where did i get a lot of negative thoughts.i am weak and strong at the same time.a lot of opposites.what else.the picture of your journey is beautiful and good.congratulations and thanks again.

Tracey
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Tracey

I have been struggling with Depression all of my life,I have been to a lot of Therapists and nothing seems to be working,I just want to get rid of the negative thoughts feelings that are plaguing my life,I just want to be happy.

Mandy Fall
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Mandy Fall

Thank you for the great read! I just celebrated 4 years sober and it is definitely not an easy thing to do. For me rock bottom was losing people I loved most and realizing if I kept going I would soon have no one. Today I have repaired most those relationships and it such a gift to not take those around me for granted ❤

Jeannie
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Jeannie

I’m so proud of you! You are a very brave and strong woman! It takes courage to acknowledge our weaknesses and even more to get help for and face them. Way to go!!! You are a beautifully brave soul and an inspiration. God bless you!!!
I’ve been in the same process for a year and a half now, building myself and my life back up through various methods, from various causes…I still have a bit to go…one step and one day at a time. The thing that has helped me more than anything is acknowledging the role God has played in my life instead of allowing myself to play God and deem myself unworthy. In addition to all the beautiful souls that were there to assist in getting me to that point. We are all children of God and once we understand that, he will leads us to the help we need, provides the strength to endure and I have faith that he will see me through to victory. He blessed me with so many beautiful souls along the way that its impossible to deny his assistance. One thing that assists me now, seeing as how I’m stubborn and have to do things the hard way, in order to stay focused on the positives and where I am headed and what I have learned throughout this process is an inspiration board. Cheapest inspirational tool ever…… some old magazines, a piece of poster board and some glue sticks. Create the life you want with the words, pictures or whatever inspiration you can find in the old magazines. God bless all of the beautifully brave women that have spoke up!!!

Larry
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such an amazing story

Suzan
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Suzan

Very inspired story how you turned every things negative suffered from during life jurnny to positive by your determination self development and keep learing and then you becomes more wiser stronger and winner ,i liked the article

baya elbey
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amazing story really worth reading true self confrontation and great self challenge you are so courageous person thank you for sharing your with us your story

Gail Liming
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Gail Liming

What is written took courage and I admire how you taught yourself how to get through this addiction with willpower and a determination to help yourself. And life can only get better, keep going, and let no one persuade you otherwise, all things are possible and hopeful. Eventually, when you’re more stable with your life and sure where you’re headed maybe taking courses in human behaviour in the area of addictions could help others, there is a great need for that. I wish you the best that life can bring, and thank you for sharing your story.

Beatrice Hernandez
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Deep and from the heart…
My experiences have come and gone…
My Faith and help from my Parents when they were
alive gave me the strength to pull myself out of the deep well of depression…
This was very difficult for others to understand.
In the past people believed in sending you away..
My Parents never gave up.
The last time I fell into the deep well of despair
my Sister drove me to my Physician.
He prescribed medication that gradually pulled me
out of the dark well…
My Parents and Friends at work were praying for my
return to health..
The belief in God and help from my Parents and Family was how I could return to the light…
No one who has ever felt like they were never going to be normal in the real world understands the relief from the darkness in our mindness. We can be our own
worst enemy..
Prayer , meditation and medication saved me.
Your article was so easy to relate to because my
illness started in my teens..
May God Bless you and keep you on the path to enlightenment and good health…
Keep striving to remain strong and positive…
There is a place for all of us in this beautiful world..
We just need to look for beauty and light everyday…

..

Tiffany Newsome
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Tiffany Newsome

Indeed I have been at rock bottom. Sometimes I wake up and still feel the same way. But, I have found and as I continue to grow forward that there will be many more days like the bad ones. The on;y suggestion I have foe anyone else who may be at rock bottom or feel like it is, The old saying is true: ” No matter how hard you have it, someone else has it much worse.” So, with that being said, continue to pray without cease, learn how to become disciplined enough to recognize temptation and avoid falling into Satan’s trap and stay vigilant with a burning desire to walk the straight and narrow path.

Tiffany Newsome
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Tiffany Newsome

Indeed I have been at rock bottom. Sometimes I wake up and still feel the same way. But, I have found and as I continue to grow forward that there will be many more days like the bad ones. The only suggestion I have for anyone else who may be at rock bottom or feel like it is, The old saying is true: ” No matter how hard you have it, someone else has it much worse.” So, with that being said, continue to pray without cease, learn how to become disciplined enough to recognize temptation and avoid falling into Satan’s trap and stay vigilant with a burning desire to walk the straight and narrow path. ^^^^ ( excuse my typos in the first post) 🙁

Fatima Shahnaz Ahmad
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You are so brave! It takes much courage to not only accept your truths but to share them with the world. I remember being in a constant battle with the world and I later realized that it was only because I was in a constant battle with myself. It’s so very easy to numb away our feelings but it takes lots of bravery to feel, accept and embrace them. It IS a lot of hard work but SO WORTH the peace that follows. You have just helped so many by sharing your life with the world and letting people know that they are NOT alone. We are always a work in progress and I am extremely blessed to be on this journey with you. Much love. <3

Sue Smith
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The human inclination to survive is amazing! Thank you for sharing your raw and beautiful story with us Akiroq! Those “light bulb moments” as I call them, when you get that illumination of truth, when you recognize YOUR truth, of where you are, how you can grow, what you need to do to change, what new choice you need to make….those raw moments are some of our best moments in life! Yes they are hard, at first, painful, at first, extremely difficult, at first, but so are many things worth having. Where would we be without these moments? We would have no growth, no change, no learning, no improvement, we would just stay the same. Embrace the moments that change you for the better! They are invaluably great!

Sue Smith
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💖💞💖 love to you Akiroq

Nisha KC
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Nisha KC

I am so thankful today that I got to read this article because I am going through this kind of situation now a days. I am doing the same thing, not totally but little bit as written above. The sense of self awareness is helping me too. Now I realise not only me, has this kind of condition but other’s too have. It will help me out. Thank you.

Wanda Drake
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Wanda Drake

Thank you for sharing this. I have never been addicted to anything but Cigarettes. But quit 1 hour at a time until I no longer had the craving. That was 23 years ago and I don’t regret it. But I know someone who this might benefit. Thank you! It is a very deep and powerful message and one I will share with someone I love deeply and every day I worry about him. He is the love of my life and every day I feel like I am losing him more and more. Thank you!

Vasudevan Bhattathir
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This isa well written article . it express the deep rooted war that goes on in the mind when we have reached a stage of life in which we can see only darkness, then all of a sudden some light flashes in our mind which will lift us up us
I had some experiences of it at my early days when I have completed my Degree in Engineering as well as when my father expired when I was seven years of old all these times I had Divine help and my mind was guided by the spark of Divine with in my heart.
Thank you for such a nice article . Have Divine blessing on you.

Jeremiah de Leon
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Life didn’t promise to have a rainbow after the rain or a silver lining behind the dark clouds. God didn’t promise to have a smooth path on walking with Him. He promise a good life after the race. In Life the only thing that we can do is to accept things and letting God do His plans in our life. Sometimes, we feel that God didn’t hear our prayers. He was not present in times that we need Him. But one thing is for sure, He is testing our faith towards him. In a world full of agony and despair, be one of those who know how to do good. While walking in life, we might experience downfall and hardship, yes! We will experience hardships and problems. If you right now is on this kind of stage of life, always

PUSH
Pray Until Something Happens

God bless Us

Lalie Nieto
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Lalie Nieto

Hi Akiroq, Bryant and Jenni💕 I have experienced Rock Bottom so many times from childhood till adulthood. But it’s true a form of rebirth follows all the time.
Last 1997, I got involved in a work related problem in an office where I used to work. The anxiety and stress gripped me for more than a year. It was the first time wherein I experienced being judged unfairly and seeing some so-called friends turn their backs on me. Thankfully, I was also blessed with open-minded and mature people who stood by me regardless. This incident also coincided with the effects of the economic downfall ìn 1997 wherein I also got affected. But I realized that the monetary loss was nothing as compared to the loss of peace of mind that I experienced from the work related problem. But as usual, being a warrior ever since, I survived the trauma of that experience leaving me only lessons that I still carry within me uo to this day . The birth of my first child in 1999 was very symbolical since it was sort of a rebirth for me. Giving birth to her sort of released me from the pain I carried with me for months. As a result if that problem, I became very prayerful and learned the art of Surrender to a Higher Power for things which are beyond my control. And I have proven that God sometimes allows us to go through troubled waters not to drown us but to polish us and instill in us new values and attitudes. And yes God really protects the innocent souls after all. Thank you.

Nicholas J Cobos
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Akiroq, thank you thank you! This is an amazing article. Thank you for sharing. I could relate to some of what you said. No not about drugs or rehab because I haven’t been there before. I do however know how it is to deal with loneliness in the world and having that “me against the world” mindset with nowhere to turn. I still deal with some of that but not as much, thanks to my royal family. Self care has been huge for me and correcting my self talk and negative voices around me and in my/your head. Play some music you like, each day, or even quiet soft music to help you clear your mind and soul of the chatter so you can like I said work on your self-talk. Love you.

Leslie
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Leslie

Thanks for Sharing this. So true we can only live one moment at a time. We cannot worry about the past and the wrong choices nor fear the future and messing it up again. We can only do our best one day one moment at a time.

Lins
Member

I turned to God. Finished reading a children’s Bible in a week. Got baptised. He showed me slow and steady, the best things in life meant for me.

Joel
Member

Hi Akiroq,

Thank you for sharing a deep part of your life story.
It must have been tough putting it all into words.
I am happy for you and certainly hope for many good things to come your way.

I am happy that you have your life together and that you’ve learned to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned through the years that we were all wonderfully made. We were gifted since conception.

Amongst the gifts we were given is a mind that has great power to either destroy or create a new life for itself and even others.

I will be thinking of you and will be cheering you on as you pursue your goals in life.

May your life be filled with much love and peace.

Heather
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Heather

Beautifully said!

Elle
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Elle

Akiroq, I read this during an overwhelmingly emotional morning. I call it a blessing because you articulated exactly how I feel at the moment. I am also at my rock bottom. While I may feel alone and helpless most of the time, I cling to hope — hope that I can turn it all around for me and that a better life is possible. Thank you.

Donna MacFarlane
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Donna MacFarlane

Your life experience is encouraging. I am still trying how to love myself, and what that means. I left my ex after 33 years of marriage. Meet a other guy, didn’t work out. I have to come to the conclusion that God’s love is enough. Thanks for sharing your story.

Rudy Leach
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Rudy Leach

Everyday is a struggle but I have learned that only I can grow,love and learn for me! I am starting over at 51 years( it is hard) but I am finally laughing and smiling again! This was an incredible article…thanks for letting me know I am not alone at clawing and scratching my way back to the sunshine on my face and the shadows at my back! No more beating myself senseless over somethings out of my control!

Kim Bellanca
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Dear Akiroq(Our Beacon of LIGHT)! Thank you for sharing a (Raw)part of yourself-you taking this step is part of a healing process & while doing so; you are helping your readers that may be in the same situation-turn their life around(Just Like You)! I’m (<: and proud of you/Akiroq! Peace/Love,Kim…

Robina fazal
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Sweet Sister!Akiroq Brost…Really inspired by your Story,based on your true…pain…how you recover…and your courage and positive energy..to be a Strong person…growing more❤👑Thanks for Sharing….You are right as much we can survive from our pain.. that pain becomes our strength to move on in life….with a hope to be a more better…more positive…and confident person..life is not a bed of roses…we have to work hard with full heart and Soul….to make it but worth living….as hardships..worries…tensions …inner battles…facing challenges.. all are part of life..we have to learn the art of making how we can make ourselves…more strong and capable to deal the rough and tough situations.. and to get the most out of life….We have to learn to be happy..in ease….as much we love ourselves…we can creat a better human inside us….as much we let ourselves grow….and live a life of purpose we can we useful for the whole society…Amen

Natasha
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Natasha

I have hit rock bottom I was in a verbal abused relationship for 10 years I thought that was pain I thought I have been in the worse part of my life oh know that was not the worst after my ex and I separated it was the best feeling in the world I felt free I was when I was with my ex I was dreaming about this guy with brown hair brown bead and blue eyes at then before I meet getting dawn to another Geelong being a bulldog supporter then get this overwhelming feeling to go for another team is scary and then getting a dream you going to meet your future husband future father of kids and and have the some image of you being dreaming about all your life and then to have people interfere because they know your twin flame and to have him pull away and run that’s the most horrible pain I ever experienced

Melissa Rose Rothschild
Member

Akiroq,
The sharing of our experiences , strength and hope carry a messsge to others still sick and suffering. There is no greater purpose.
Your spiritual awakening occurred through rigorous honesty. Thank you for sharing this knowledge.
(I will only add for those addicted to seek a medical detox initially because withdrawal can cause death for the addict or alcoholic.)
❤️U.

Becki McDonough
Member

Akiroq, thank you for sharing this amazing story of your courage and strength. It serves as a great example to all of us that there is hope, even when things seem insurmountable You should be proud of yourself every single day. I will be printing this for a parent to share with her child suffering from severe addiction. It may just save a life! Being of service to others is the goal many strive for. You persevered through incredible odds to be a true story of human success. Love and blessings to you. You are a gift.

Odie Rose
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Odie Rose

I have experienced being in a rock bottom. Lost my job, filed bankruptcy, my daughter was diagnosed with end stage renal failure and all this happened within a year. Worse I don’t get no support from my family..I struggled and still struggling to keep my daughter alive to maintain her dialysis treatment. She had a kidney transplant but unfortunately after a year her body rejected the transplanted kidney. I’m struggling to keep our head above water just so I can provide my daughter’s medical expenses since the country where she at..theres no such a thing medical assistance., if there is you’ll be dead before you get it. By the grace of God I’m praying i live long enough so I can continue to provide for her medical expenses and with help from friends. ROCK BOTTOM but I’m a survivor.

Luisa. B. Pagan. Santiago
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Luisa. B. Pagan. Santiago

God is the only way,,,,,, Be Patient,,,,,, Beleive in Him whith Faith, you put all your Battles in His Hand,,,,, You will see hoe The Lord Wins The Battles🙏❤️, hou and your daughter are are Warriors , and Somens whith Purpose and God loves people like you, I will be praying for you two, ,,,Luisa Pagàn,,,, From Puerto Rico, USA,,,,, my island suffered on Sept. 2017,4 horrible huracanes, Harvey,,, Irma, maria and Josè,,,, and we are Hopefull.

Bonnie
Member

Thank you Louisa. I am from Miami and have a lot of friends from Puerto Rico. I also went through the worst of Hurricane Andrew. I was so mad at God that I refused His grace. I was literally brought to my knees and wheelchair bound when I realized I needed a fresh start where I could go back to my roots and allow Jesus to embrace me. I have never looked back. Prayers for all of you.

Julie Roach
Member

Thank you for sharing your testament of growth and breakthrough Akiroq. I noticed how you made the distinction of the isolation and lack of positive support while spirling toward your rock bottom. Is a twist of fate, or potentially the purpose of our pain; when we can become to others what we ourselves lacked during a time of need? Knowing your passion to encourage others, I was reminded of the quote,”Be the person you needed when you were younger.” (Ayesha Siddiqi) May you continue to stand firm in your wisdom and help others believe a better life is possible.

Luisa. B. Pagan. Santiago
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Luisa. B. Pagan. Santiago

Yes it is. I began to ve me , in the last 5 years . After feeling dead, tried to stop living a couple of times, didn’t want to accept that my husband eft whith a High School girl. I fighted whith God, couldn’t accepted,,,,, why me??? Oh God , I am a good woman, good daughter, mother, Why ???? Cluldn’g accept this and got ingo a bed for years, receiving therapist help for 24 years, and I lost my parents whith weeks of differences, nd it became worst,,, almost died mentally, so I was mad at God, but never stop praying and whith Holy Mry, I came back whith the help of God. He never left me alone. He used one of my grandson , of 12, he chng the way of seeing why God took that devil away from us. I start to forgive him, his woman, I pray a lot, and start from 0. I have no past, I am 73 years old, 6 grandchildren and 5 GGGrandchildren and fhnkful for bad and vomod things❤️🙏🙏😳🙈🙈🙈

Cheryl
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I’m at rock bottom but I’m so excited about MY LIFE for the first time in many years. I’m excited about being in CHRIST the way I always should have been. And I’m excited about beginning again. Yes somethings happened to me . Life happened to me but the GRACE OF GOD has kept me and Blessed me and I AM THRIVING IN HIM. And I’m excited about this brand new chapter.

Joshua C. Daniels
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Joshua C. Daniels

Jesus Christ is the Hope & Ultimate Solution for all that is Great in life, trust in Him and lean not on to your own understanding . . .

Maryam Ansari
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Maryam Ansari

Very interesting
Awesome

Carol Noel
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Carol Noel

It’s good to read honest life experiences like yours. It should encourage others who read it to push through their situations and like Jo pick up a pen and share their story too. Thanks.

evelyn soneja trimidal
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evelyn soneja trimidal

i’ve already experienced being at rock bottom. when you’re there, you feel that you’re the least of all. you feel hopeless, useless. when i was there, i took stock of myself and realized i have to love myself before i can ever love anyone. i used to put others first before me hoping that the love i give them will also be the love that they’ll give me. but the reality is…you can never expect anyone to love you the way you love them. you have to love yourself first. and that’s what i did. when you’re down there at rock bottom, there’s no way to go now but up. i was already scraping the bottom of t he barrel. i worked to level myself up. i stopped putting other people first. this time. me first before others. and i was able to go up. i’m not saying i no longer help others…i still do…but i’m now choosy with the person i have to help.

Laurie Lankins Farley
Member

If we knew then what we know now.. right?

Janice Wayne
Member

How powerful! Akiroq this has truly touched my heart. You showed such courage and strength. You are truly a inspiration for us all, I can only imagine how many people you have helped by sharing your story. I thank you. ❤️

JuliaPathfider
Member

Thank You Akiroq, for sharing your story, It will help many people. its so powerful and beautifully inspiring.

ColleenHoyles
Member

Wonderful uplifting and inspiring article on taking back your life Akiroq. As JK Rowling stated “Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.” You are living proof. So glad you are here to inspire us all.

Karra Theodora
Member

You are a hero!! Despite the fact that you have been through so many things and you still standing that is the great accomplishment ever!! I am really proud of you!! You are a winner of life.

Mousumi
Member

I read your story…me too faught many battles with myself for my child too…tremendous courage and faith in god kept me going…so I think every person who are going through a rough patch , should not lose hope keep focussed to your goal.

Uchenna Ilo
Member

This is further confirmation that wisdom, compassion and strength come from pain, suffering, and helplessness. Very inspiring story of surviving the darkness and finding a way back to the light. The dark night of the soul visits us all to bring out the best in us. I’m glad to have met your soul on this amazing journey on earth. Thanks for sharing a portion of your darkness. It will help us grow.

Angeliki Anastasia
Member

Beautiful mind, heart,soul!!! I’ve been there into that deep loneliness!!! It literally can vanquish people!!! It is a nightmare!!! You rose up, so high, up in the sky and for that you need to be congratulated every second in your life!!! I salute your whole existence! Bravooooooooooo Akiroq!!!!!

Barbara Vercruysse
Member

Wow, so powerful and beautiful!!! Thank you for sharing ❤️

Jo Davis
Member

A beautiful glimpse into the journey that made you the royal friend we love & admire. Thank you so much for sharing this raw & honest story. Inspired. Picking back up my pen, thanking the Universe for yet another nudge.